I have had a recent unexpected situation that has challenged my beliefs, my capacity to love unconditionally, and my tolerance level for what I will accept. I was given some information about someone that I love which has hurt me in more profound ways than I can express here, though I will say that it brought up an unpleasant experience I had as a child. In a way, it was as if I was back there re-living those moments. My body reacted so strongly over the emotions that came up from my subconscious and my past. If an adult does something to a child because it is how they are choosing to live their life, that child does not have free will in that moment. Children are curious and they may not realize at the time the effect that their experience will have later in their life. It is up to the adult to protect the child. As a result, they may have to change their behaviors to accommodate the growth of that child.
We develop our beliefs and our feelings from what we have learned as well as our experiences while growing up, and our morals, our ethics are formed. While I do believe in shedding many of the domesticated ideas we were told as we grew up, I don’t agree with letting go of one’s true moral beliefs. If someone chooses to live in a free way, with no boundaries, whereas everything is accepted through words and actions, I see no problem with that, but when it comes to negatively and profoundly affecting another soul, then it becomes wrong. If one chooses to live a spiritual life without fear, without guilt, without restrictions, but then places those exact things onto someone else, especially a child, it is wrong and it is NOT living a spiritual life.
I have come to the conclusion that I can still love unconditionally, I can still love and choose not to have someone in my life if who they are choosing to be deeply goes against my moral and ethical beliefs. The only sin is going against yourself, and I refuse to do that. Ultimately, unconditional love starts with yourself – if you can’t love yourself in that way, you will never be able to love another.
To the person expressed within the blog above: I love you very much and I will always love you. I hope that someday you will realize that the actions you are choosing are not in alignment with who you are. The beautiful soul I know you to be is who you truly are. I am sending you all my healing energy, positive light, and profound love. You are love, and you are loved.
“Out beyond the ideas of rightdoing and wrongdoing there is a field. I’ll meet you there.” ~Anonymous