Love Breaks Down any Limitations to its Fullest Expression
May29

Love Breaks Down any Limitations to its Fullest Expression

Q. It has been a long time since I contacted you. I have been following your blog though but I was feeling only like an observer. Now something has come up and I want to share it. About a year back I found out that my soul mate (husband) was texting to another female who was a close friend of mine. After I confronted them both, he agreed not to continue. But suddenly a few days back it stared again and they were going to further extremes. My children also came to know about it and were very shocked and disappointed. We had a serious discussion and now my soul mate says he will keep away and that other woman’s husband is also aware . As regards me I do not know what to feel. I was shocked but not pained cos I am aware of my twin flame and I love him very much and my soul mate has been only my companion for all these years . Further I have kept away from him physically since I became close with my twin flame. Is this all part of a grander plan? I feel relief on one side that my soul mate can no longer claim that I am hurting him. However I have since asked him to go for spiritual guidance and we have been going to such a centre for the past few days with my children. I do not know where this will lead and what is the purpose of this all and how I should take it. Gabriella what can you understand from this… A. Quite nice to hear from you! I understand about feeling like an observer on the blog for I’ve felt this myself…seems like a lot of that energy going around ~ observing things around us, our relationships, situations, what we feel, think, believe within and witnessing what we are creating without, shifting it as we feel guided. Honestly, in this situation, you would need to feel into what feels right for you… what resonates with you from deep within you… how you feel about what has transpired, and what you are to receive within it, as well as to give because of it. But from my own personal experience I can say, that many times, the wheels can be turned, so to speak, to give you a different perspective and wholeness to the love that you are. I remember you expressing that you were sharing, opening and feeling the love/connection with your Beloved, that you shared this with your soul mate, and that there was shifting going on within your...

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The Force that Carries You
May27

The Force that Carries You

Those of you that have experienced this will understand. There is a force that pulls at you when you least expect it, or perhaps because you aren’t expecting it…this force overtakes you as it forsakes any shards of “sanity” you have clung to, that cannot be sustained in the midst of such a force. It encourages you. It begs you even to not name it, for such a defining somehow attempts to confine it. It is unable to be contained. This profoundly goes against the essence of its existence. It is a force that invites you into the depths of your creation but it asks you not to try to take all the pieces in the hopes of making them a whole. The wholeness resides in those pieces remaining as they are, hovering around you, magnetizing you in, moving you beyond the reason for wanting the cohesive fusion. This union, this fusion, IS in the flowing, the dancing, the romancing of it all, wildly and untamed laying in wait before you, to be totally immersed as you are consumed by its divine grace. Your face takes on new expressions. Your voice rises and falls with unbridled freedom, peaking and squeeking at inopportune moments. You are in the throes of an orgasmic bliss not easily understood by those so firmly grounded in their humanity. Take those roots you falsely identified with and let them unfurl, as they untangle themselves from within your being, enticing your divinity into freedom. This is where expansion and enlightenment make love, endlessly, infinitely. Your body moves as it reforms into new grooves that become the vision you term your identity. You look in the mirror and see for the very first...

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Do you Have any Should Bees in Your Garden?
May22

Do you Have any Should Bees in Your Garden?

There are no more “should” bees in my world. See they used to hover like this one, intently gazing into my essence, asking me if I wanted him to stay. Lovingly and politely I offered him the chance to explore on his own, to visit someone else if he was invited elsewhere. I no longer felt the need to have him frequent my company. Excitedly, eagerly, I waved goodbye as he disappeared around the bend. Though I was happy to see him move on, I was also in gratitude for his time with me. He taught me through the experience of “should be’s” that I excluded my awareness to what is right now, what is present here right now. If I am should be-ing, then I am perceiving what IS happening as not perfect, wishing it were different. Yet change cannot come about from this space. Tis the space of surrender into these raindrops coming down upon my skin and allowing the moisture to soak in that allows for my skin to be hydrated. I see it now. Here is an invitation for you today, recognize if you have any “should” bees hovering around you and release them if it resonates with you. What a liberating...

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The Meaning of Art is in Art Itself
May13

The Meaning of Art is in Art Itself

What is the meaning of Art? Well ~ there’s no such thing. Art IS. Art brings us into this ISness as it breaks this ISness in the same instance. I taught creative writing classes years back and found there are two common perceptions/fears I found cropping up in the students. 1. The thought that one couldn’t write, which created a hesitancy to put pen to paper. What this really is, is a concern that what one wants to say, to express, to creatively invent may be judged and not accepted, that one’s self worth is dependent on an opinion by an outside source. 2. They were afraid of openly expressing their thoughts and feelings on the writings of others. So often, we shut up and lock up, literally our flow of essence into creation or sharing about creations because we are reluctant to cause an argument. Quite honestly, we are afraid of separation and lashed out irritation because of perceiving such. I loved the classes in college where we could all read a book and share about it openly, giving our thoughts and feelings that came up in the process of delving into the characters and specific story painted by the writer, without any of us feeling that the other was intentionally debating with us to cause friction. Art is meant to bring us together. Yet art is also meant to bring us into all of the aspects that can separate us, the nuances, that make us human, which includes the light and the dark, the up and the down, the here and the there, and even beyond all of these. Art brings IN the circle of life and shows all of the lines that were drawn to create the sphere, yet even exposes the lines that go beyond what you can see. I recall in my younger years, when I would share a poem I wrote with my mother, she would say, “I don’t know. What do you want me to say?” I would respond, “whatever you want to say.” Therefore, “I don’t know” would suffice. She later did tell me that she remembers being ridiculed and redirected to the “right” answer if it was wrong in school. Hence this is where her hesitancy to even allow herself to feel or take in what I created came from and her reluctance to share with me. In art, there is no “right” or “wrong” answers. There is what you perceive, and what you allow yourself to receive, and THEN, those can change, again and again, and again, never giving you a concrete set response. This is the joy and...

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If Only ~ You Had a Second Chance to Love, Would you Take It?
May11

If Only ~ You Had a Second Chance to Love, Would you Take It?

Last night, I watched the movie “If Only” with Jennifer Love Hewitt. I must say, that it profoundly brought me into the depth of my personal journey, all of the steps and everything that has happened to bring me to exactly where I am right now. Who I am in my core essence, and where I am right now as I’m typing this to you. I would be lying if I were to say that it has been smooth sailing. The past year of 2012 has brought with it so many bitter and sweet moments. My sweet dog Shila was put down, my uncle went through a harsh and hard liver transplant surgery and recovery, my mother went through a divorce, and the biggest, still emotional thing for me was my father’s passing at such a young age. It still brings tears to my eyes to think of him not being physically present in the future unfoldings for many of the biggest moments of my life… yet I am blessed with feeling him here in my heart. At the end of this movie, which ends completely unexpectedly!!!!!!!!!!! I’m not saying anything else in case you decide to watch it. It totally opened up the waterways in my eyes and out poured an abundance of tears. What I felt was the profound complete journey of each step that I have taken thus far, and all that I feel unfolding on the rest of this journey (though mind you, I don’t know all of what is to come ~ what would life be like if we knew everything? 😉 ). I was in such a humble, open space full of the deepest gratitude for the journey to experiencing divine, sacred love and its infinite capacity to connect beyond form. I have had many dreams with my father since he passed in addition to feeling him beyond our bodies. I have had the same experience with my Beloved, whom I shall be able to embrace physically soon, not without tears, I’m sure of that. It feels as though my journey has been one of knowing the sweetness of divine love so deep within my core pieces of my being, and holding to this throughout everything I’ve experienced as I watch all that I have been given from within ~ the visions, the emotions, the intuition ~ unfold in my life as I know it anew THROUGH the experience and witnessing of it. I am blessed, truly blessed. All of you are blessed too. May you allow yourself to review, to view your whole journey of life up to this point, feel the...

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