Last night, I watched the movie “If Only” with Jennifer Love Hewitt. I must say, that it profoundly brought me into the depth of my personal journey, all of the steps and everything that has happened to bring me to exactly where I am right now. Who I am in my core essence, and where I am right now as I’m typing this to you. I would be lying if I were to say that it has been smooth sailing. The past year of 2012 has brought with it so many bitter and sweet moments. My sweet dog Shila was put down, my uncle went through a harsh and hard liver transplant surgery and recovery, my mother went through a divorce, and the biggest, still emotional thing for me was my father’s passing at such a young age. It still brings tears to my eyes to think of him not being physically present in the future unfoldings for many of the biggest moments of my life… yet I am blessed with feeling him here in my heart.
At the end of this movie, which ends completely unexpectedly!!!!!!!!!!! I’m not saying anything else in case you decide to watch it. It totally opened up the waterways in my eyes and out poured an abundance of tears. What I felt was the profound complete journey of each step that I have taken thus far, and all that I feel unfolding on the rest of this journey (though mind you, I don’t know all of what is to come ~ what would life be like if we knew everything? 😉 ). I was in such a humble, open space full of the deepest gratitude for the journey to experiencing divine, sacred love and its infinite capacity to connect beyond form. I have had many dreams with my father since he passed in addition to feeling him beyond our bodies. I have had the same experience with my Beloved, whom I shall be able to embrace physically soon, not without tears, I’m sure of that. It feels as though my journey has been one of knowing the sweetness of divine love so deep within my core pieces of my being, and holding to this throughout everything I’ve experienced as I watch all that I have been given from within ~ the visions, the emotions, the intuition ~ unfold in my life as I know it anew THROUGH the experience and witnessing of it. I am blessed, truly blessed. All of you are blessed too.
May you allow yourself to review, to view your whole journey of life up to this point, feel the love that has grown in you, that you are sharing with others. You can choose again right now, to feel this love more profoundly flowing through you, to balance that vibration of love as you give it to others you encounter, and allow it to come back upon you. Look right into the moments that have seemed harsh or bitter to you and see what you have been given through the experience. Where do you see the love given and received? I love you so very much and wish that you continue to see the love around you and to cherish the love in your life.
Much love for a blessed rest of your weekend,
P.S. Sometimes when I do look back upon the steps along my journey, I am in amazement for my unwavering trust and faith in the inevitable reunion of love’s embrace. I am blessed to have been given this undying, everlasting, and infinitely growing depth of love inside of me. I have always held true to it, never faltered, nor altered the love that is my unique vibration. This is the blessing.